hallo. another blog without title. This morning, i was woken up 3 times before i actually woke up. =x So, do the usual stuff and then go downstairs.
When i went downstairs, i looked around for my sister. she was missing. then i thought.. oh she went for piano lessons. so i just do my normal stuff and then got ready to go to eewen's house for revision. Suddenly, from far away i heard my sister walking back home. I wanted to make a surprise, so i clicked my auto gate remote control and opened two gates to welcome her. but she wasn't surprise after all. haha. failed ==z.

So now im back at OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE again ==''
=(
but this time, my dear promised to so called *BELANJA* me. hopefully when the bill comes, i dont need to take out my wallet. xDD

Signing Off,
dannysam
12:19 PM
20/09/10

P/s : is quite hard to write a blog for half a day. im still on-the-way to writing an awesome blog which can attract people to come and read. ><''
Apology to those who feel dissapointed.
<3

Hah. finally tried to put an empty title.

I have something in mind. its big.

Its cool, quite romantic but I'm gonna keep a secret.

eewen, thanks for visiting this blog often. I'll think of something to change some design or stuff like that.

cheers,
Sam

Signing Off,
12:51AM
20/09/2010

randomness.

dont know how to start. dont know how to end.


now i'mma in the class for info sys.
lecturer haven't come in. and u know what. the environment of the ICT lab in sg long is awesome. roar!
computer is new. 1 thing and internet is smooth and silky.

anyways.
i was pointed a gun by eewen asking me to write out the blog on how we met each other.
i am currently still thinking whether should i write it here. danger wor. =(

i'll come out with words which aren't so dangerous la. ok?

promise to write it tonight.

signing off,
dannysam
8.00 am 3/06/10

abcdefg. whats next?

...

Was forced to write blog again. but nvm.. it feels cool to express personal thoughts.

here i go... = )

31st may 2010. Its the first day for me starting classes in UTAR Sg. Long Campus.

Hah. 1 month of holiday, i think its already enough.

Keep my heart of wanting to relax and play already.

Serious Work Has To Be Done!

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It has been years! i've waken up so early. as early as 6.30. how to do that everyday wor..

but no problem. haha. got motivation. by someone! =X

got up my dad's car without wearing shoes or socks, with a piece of bread in my mouth.

luckily i still can swallow the bread. LOL.

overally, haha.. the whole day was fun and interesting.

It started when i waited for eewen at Station 1 Cafe Sg Long till she roll finish her bed and stuff and finally wake up *thank god* to come down stairs for class.

class starts as early as 8am. but 7am, i was at my destination already. = ~ =''

never mind that. 8am sharp i went up to my designated classroom, but when i exited the lift together with eewen, it was total darkness. *means nobody there yet lah*!

so we decided to go to M'th FLoor, DSA office. Worst. *BO LANG*

gahahahaha.. stared into the air. blank.

waited waited and waited. go into the class. met lecturer. bla bla. lolz.

2nd class was fast. lecturer came in. talk abit. then walked out. that means dismiss for us.

how to continue.. lemme think.

Had early Breakfast+Lunch = Branch

then slacked around... till 12.30 (the next class)

hahaz. in between something awesome happened. but not going to say out. keep it to myself.LOL!

then go for another class. so sien. management principle. lol. lecturer really scare us with all the coursework marks and mid term marks la. super sien. ==''

I know la. i will have to work hard la. keep scare people later phobia baru tau. =(

ahhh... first day in UTAR ended after the tutorial class. lol.

Seriously looking forward to tomorrow's class. lecture neh! in a lecture room. no more DDK EDK FDK lOL!

Then suddenly rained wor. super super heavy. Some wind just blow these clouds over.

RAIN LIKE NOBODY's BUSINESS! ==''

and also, i pei my dar dar go to jusco buy swimming suit. haha. and became 50% shareholder. =)

nice lar.

tired liao. lazy say much.

signing off,

dannysam

10.28 p.m. 31st May 2010.

(need to sleep to wake up 7.30 tomorrow la)

paiseh paiseh.

Complicated.. random words and feelings..

total 19 posts, last published 13 sep 2009

hi... after the long long dream.. i finally relize.. im asleep.. not awake...
= =''

Quoted from everyone : "love life is complicated."

You havent try, u never know...

I dont know how to put it correctly...
but its true..

hahaha...
Dreaming la you sam...

Express my feeling here.. sometimes its just so top secret how i wish i can release everything out and then lock it somewhere...
if this blog is just not under my name.. ish.. haha..

The problem i face in writing the blog is i cant think of the words and actually what the reason i want to type... but before facing the keyboard and computer.. words fill up my mind..
LOL =x

ok... this way i should put..

Dear,
When you accepted me.. I promised that I will never give up... There isnt even a chance or a little small hole that makes it possible..
It started off shakily... i understand... Proving to you was too little..
Thanks for trusting and gave me part of you to me. =)
So i thought, maybe i should do something to prove it since i wasnt *pro-active* enough..

so bla bla bla....

continue on next time la..

now i want to spit out my heart...
serious chest pain.. ><''
not heart attack right? =x
hehe.. (if you are reading this and im still alive... means im still alive lor.. xD)

i like to use example to explain things.. something that is very clear of is *the wound*.
The wound would be like a cut... a deep deep cut on your skin... then its called a wound...
it will bleed for awhile.. but then the wound will close up..
and normally layer of skin will grow on top...

similarly, you were hurt by someone.. that someone hurt you deep enough to make you have nightmares.. o.o''
haha..
so of course.. you'll make sure that there is no more second time.. rite? sure lah..
there for, u create *the skin* on top of your wound...

Dear, you are protecting it very very hard.. i understand it very much..
i respect you as who you are..

but since you have accepted me.. why cant you just lower down a little of your *skin* to let me be there to help you cure and mend the wound?

of course its a little greedy of me.. but if i dont.. when will i be then... outside watching you bleed internally with a fake protection on top of it..

Getting towards ilogical thinking already.............................................

let me cool down.. i revise for a moment..

the protection of you is making my self esteem to be lower down...
the trust is not there... without the trust.. how can we continue on...
Im just very very very very afraid.. i tell you.. afraid that what if... you continue to do that..
and i have reached my limits... (downwards limit) i'll let go...
which i hope it never ever N E V E R happens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO!
but it may... if you continue doing things like that to hurt me..

for those who dont understand.. just let it be.. thx for reading my blog btw..
its just part of my feelings.. hehe...

dear... i told you almost everything since then.. how izit possible that you can blame that i am lying you on some other things..?
i am being truthful to you but somehow you are not very much...

im hurt so badly today... 3.42am dec 30th 2009..
eyes are heavy now..
eyes are tired.. mind is tired.. heart is also tired.. tomolo will always be a new day for me..

things happens and all are taken as an experience and bad things a taken in as a reminder and also lessons to me...
gambateh sam!
till the end of time..
once the switch is off.. im dead.. =)

signing off.
sam~

新Style!

奇怪。。
这次不知怎么想用华语表达自己的心情。。
哈哈
换一换style嘛。。

考试咯。。
朋友们！加油！
我就不知道我自己了
考了两天
第一天的还好吧。。Public Speaking 咯~
第二天的。。好压力咯 Maths
最讨厌的一科。 ><
在考场时，我突然脑袋空空叻。。
深呼吸一下。。
肚子又响。。 adui..
最后把所有会的写下来。
有一题是用到graph纸...
我还以为做我隔壁那个人会做。。让我有机会偷看下。
哪里知道她什么都没画。就交上去==
我炸到下咯。。
haix...

接下来的有 English, Econs, Computer Studies 和 Accounts.
一定要加油咯！

To 全部有帮我的朋友。。谢咯！
没有的你们的话我看我一定Repeat 了。。
数学很有可能会了。。aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T.T

To apple dear
muacks.haha..

dannysam
Signing out,
1.59pm 13/9/2009

oh and i just notice that another 10 days will be my burbday! kekekex. old lohh.

July was the last post... Now its new...

So what now? Impossible?
*slapping myself each day* crying in the bed every night... since...

><...
Sort of regretted saying the truth now.. and it became a reality...
I was afraid so and now it really happened...
Guess the impact on ya'll wasnt strong enough when i told you my story...

HISTORY HAS REPEATED ITSELF!
and the consiquences is? i'll lose another friend...

Well thats basically the negative part of it...
Same like you berry.. I guess i'll let go and forget it...
><
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Recently its weird... Although enjoying life in campus... of course many times.. that I find myself quarreling with some of my group members.. I really hope it doesnt bring down and leave a mark or a scar...
Im really afraid!
Sensitivity... I highly aware of everything Im doing but when its uncontrollable..

*Screams into the pillow*
So here... I would like to apologize to all if I have done wrong and really hurt you guys..
You're hurt and so I shall be too.. ><

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Its here... Its here and Its here...
The one that I had feared all this while.. ITS HERE!!
when you say..
Its ONE Semester *aiyah.. One Semester very long one..*
When you say its 14 weeks *What lah.. 14 weeks still far away lah*
When you say its Mid-Term *Yorr.. Why so fast one.. Mid-Term liao ah?*
When you say its week 10 *Wei!! Week 10 liao! Two digit liao.. Canot play play liao...*
And now coming to the end of week 12... I am almost finish spelling out the word F A I L.
DANG! I DONT WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!
NOooo!!!

Top 2 subjects that I really needa concetrace.. I mean Concentrate!
1. Accounts
2. Maths in Business and Social Science

Study will be what my mind and mouth say and the otherwise goes to the heart...
ish..
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Hot Topic now... 2nd Trimester!! TimahTablekah... TimeTable!!
1st word...
adui..
2nd word...
ish...
3rd word...
Faint...

Utar : You are now granted the ability to choose ya'll timetable!
Check it out.. yo yo yo! ==

Im asking myself this.. Do you want to follow your friends... or do you want to go according to the plans so that it is flexible for you...
This answer here i really need to know.. leave it at my shoutbox.. or whatever you call it...

There is a plan.. but its not nice to be told out here.. Those who knows keep it... Those who doesnt dont ask.. ><
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Emo.. <<>
Girls often have it.. Do boys have?
University students may still have some children temper inside them.. so its very easy to find a person emo-ing..

Do I emo? To be honest... I CAN'T. Something comes... ok well i Emo awhile.. but it doesn't stay long in me.. Indirectly losing it.. no idea how and why too..
Just like today... I was really really mad of Kar Hong.. He kept saying things that made me angry.. but just for that few hours.. that few minutes.. I lost the anger..
I did emo at first.. then from what i remembered.. I was the one who talked back to him...
What the..

Emo wouldn't be a healthy thing if ya asked me..
Share it out.. if its something open.. or just release it.. you live life better..
hehe..

signing off,
2.58am 21st August 2009
Dannysam =D